I always pay attention to how food is effecting my mood and my body. As a part of my nutritional awareness I focus on how I feel after eating certain foods. I have learned a long time ago that food is not just about nutrition it is also about emotions.
We all need to indulge occasionally and that is exactly what I did last Saturday.
On this particular Saturday, I planned a trip to Ikea. There are three things I like about Ikea: couple watching, Swedish meatballs and the fact they have liquorice including my favourites: Schoolkrijt (Crayons) – it’s a Dutch thing.
The story behind food.
There is a story behind Ikea. I lived in the UK for 10 years, many of those with my partner at that time. And I remember many, many happy trips to Ikea where every trip would end with a visit to the Ikea restaurant for Swedish meatballs. In other words, I associate Swedish meatballs with good memories; It makes me feel good. It is also a habit to have meatballs at Ikea. An association that has become ingrained in my brain: Ikea = meatballs.
I had made my plan: Arrive at Ikea, get some “Crayons”, eat them all whilst I shop, finish of with Swedish Meatballs and chips. When I arrived at Ikea I was very disappointed to see they didn’t have “Crayons.” However they did have my other favourite: Bassett’s winegums. I decided to indulge and “since I was picking up one bad thing, I might as well have more”….and I did. –“But only for the taste”, even though I knew very well what they were going to taste like and that I probably wasn’t going to enjoy them.
During my shopping trip I was continuously stuffing myself. Enjoying what I was eating whilst also in a hurry to finish my bag of candy. Not only do I lose all self restraint when I eat licorice, I also I lose all self restraint. I eat fast. Once it’s gone it’s gone, that is my attitude. As a child licorice was my comfort food. I would buy licorice and I would smuggle it up to my room where I was often studying/ hiding from stress and tension.
Back to Ikea….
I finished my shopping trip and my bag of candy. It would have been around 200 grams which is a lot of sugar. After my shopping trip, as promised, I went to the restaurant and stuffed my face even further with meatballs and chips. I was very aware that I wasn’t really enjoying it. Who wants to sit in an Ikea restaurant, alone, surrounded by all these happy families and couples? I ate fast and I went home. I felt bloated and sick.
The day went past. When my evening plans cancelled, I decided to go and see a movie. On the way out of the cinema I couldn’t resist to get a “tiny scoop” of buttons and chocolate covered raisins at the local convenience store. They tasted disgusting. I was reminded how far I had come with my food habits. I threw them out.
My body was loaded with sugar and I started to feel down. It was a sadness. A combination of letting myself down, feeling slightly sick from all the crap (sugar) I had eaten that day and a feeling of loneliness and isolation. And than it struck me: I know this feeling.
The power of Nutritional Awareness
Nevertheless, the sadness was making me feel good. I understood this feeling, I was comfortable inside it. And in that moment I realised that it was the food that brought me to that point. I thought by myself “Wow, this is nutritional awareness, this is what food can do to people”.
Now consider this for a moment: How is food causing you to feel in a certain way? Can you relate the food that you crave to a specific “happy moment” in life that you are trying to hold on to? What foods do you use to numb pain of past (or present) experiences. How do you feel after you have been indulging in foods that you know are not good for you?
There are no right or wrong, good or bad answers to the above questions. Enjoying food good. But you can use nutritional awareness to be a driving force for change allowing you become the person you are meant to be. Denying yourself awareness is denying yourself nutrition for the soul.
Off course, if you now gained the awareness that you are not aware, you have just treated your soul with some great healing nourishment.